house fire happend wen iwas 21 yrs old after 2000.
i got home drunk after spending a night and morning out with my friend on her birthday we had drunk so many after shocks it was unbelievable that i could walk thru the door n reach the bed!
i left my toddlers with a client of mine who was paying me to be his girlfriend:cry: it was my way of gettin out of prostitution as it was a trap!
i got home at about 7 am and he said he had to go to work so he left as soon as i got home,i went straight to bed as i was totally blottoed!! snoring i was in deep deep sleep!
then in the deepest rescess of my mind i heard a faint scream my conscious said is that my son? the scream had sheer panic init,i shot up! like a robot!(boing sat up in bed)i looked n saw my toddlers screaming to high heavens!
i looked to my bedroom door and there was a huge firball of fire roaring hissing so big it was!! it had been underway for sumtime but cos i was so drunk i couldnt hear my childrens SCREAMS! but i did didnt i i heard it just caught it JUST CAUGHT IT!
(normally smoke keeps a person asleep,my son had been outside aswell he said after allthis ,he had tried to get water from taps n put it out!!he said he couldnt leave his mummy tho to die in her sleep..my little HERO!:cry: he had got hold of a lighter,not his fault i should of been a decent mother.)
I jumped out of bed lord knows i normally locked them windows as the children used to try n climb out of em but thank God it was open..
i turned around to pick up my toddlers to chuck them out of a house on the bedroom floor upstairs two storeys up!( well it was better than burning we had no escape) but as i turned round to pick them up a huge black smog of smoke came and i couldnt breath i couldnt see:cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: i breathed it in and it burned me inside me:cry: i crept onto the window sill to get air by then there was ahuge crowd outside telling me to jump! i screamed MY CHILDREN ARE IN HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WENT BACK IN I PUT MY HANDS THRU FLAMES I WASNT LEAVING THEM I WASNT!:cry: :cry: :cry: I COULDNT FEEL THEM I WALKED TO THE DEEPEST HOTTEST PART OF THE ROOM PUT MY HANDS IN THE FLAMES I COULDNT FEEL THEM:cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:
I HAD TO GO BACK TO THE WINDOW SILL FOR AIR AS I DID I FAINTED OUT HEAD FIRST! I FELL ONTO THE GROUND,AS I THUDDED MY EYES OPEN I LOOKED UP TO THE WINDOW! WHAT WAS DOING OUTSIDE OF THE ROOM NOOOOOO! I SHOT UP OPEND MY FRONT DOOR BALLS OF FLAMES CAME OUT THIS BIG FAT WOMAN GRABBED ME HELD ME IN A BEAR LOCK,cos i i woulda ran into the flames i gone insane for mychildren! i was banging my head my face against the wall very very hard,she let me go i ran round in circles looking up at the window flames comming out of the window now a man had got a ladder and tried to get in window but a huge blast broke the glass wiv heat he couldnt i ran round in circles screaming franticly!
then.
I SCREAMED TO LORD WITH ALL MY MIGHT AND STRENGTH AND I SAID DONT LET THIS HAPPEN!!!!
then everything went quiet this energy came thru the top of my head and went to my heart it was going thru all my darkest wishes all my darkest secrets all my goodness allmy love,
and this voice a fartherly voice...said to me..
is this what you want? it searched my heart it seemed like a minuit but was only a few seconds then from my heart i said NO!!
and as that was done the fire engines turned up! and they walked straight thru the flames and brought out my children,my son started to spit n splutter but my daughetr they couldnt get i could go to my son because of my daughter they was saying she was dead kane was sat up tho he was but i couldnt go they was saying she was DEAD:cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: my baby girl they gave her mouth to mouth for last time ,i think the lord knew i couldnt live without her n she BREATHED:bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: HALLELUYA PRAISE GOD!
she did die again in hospital but they got her back again,she had to have a skin graft my son also has scars but u wouldnt know it to look at em my daughters arm as neat line down her forearm now n sum little scars on her back.
the firemen said one more min in there and the roof would of collapsed,we was infront page of newspaer on the news on telly and on radio,IT WAS MIRACLE!!!
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My daughter had long hair very long hair if the fire had of got that she woulda died,the reason why i couldnt find my childrenin the fire is because they hid underneath my bed!!! argh my son kane said he thought i was with hi he could feel me hugging him my daughter was only partly under the bed hence her arm getting so badly burned.
the bed was in the middle of the room
i went back after spending many onths in hospital to the house and i looked in the bedroom! everything around the bed was incinerated! totally the window was on the other side of the bed and the curtain n window was gone (burned) but not even the undersheet or duvet of the double bed had been touched by flames!( angels must of been protecting them) it was a miracle!
i tunred christian while i was in hospital i went to the chapel i was in a wheel chair with my hands in bandages,my friend rolled me into the chappel n as i got in thru the door i just wept n wept n wept n wept n wept,this woman stood up n said i have a word for you from God,she said god knows every strand of hair on your head or summin like that basicly God knows everything about me.
and God saved my children he gave me a choice because i didnt apreciate my children attal.
parise God.
i had to live with my aunty and uncle afterwards for few months while i waited for a new house they praid to God for the right house,my old house in in a horrible the worst council estate in my town,it was a horrid boxy house.after about 5 months on my birthday 8th of nov!! a letter came thru the door offering me my three bedroomed parlour semi detached house :bow: miracle wat a birthday gift!
and because of my depression and my prostitution b4 hand , idint realise how much money i was supposed to be getting from the income support my uncle worked out that i hadnt been gettin my child benefits so he rang them up,they said i could only get three weeks back dated moneywhich would only be a few hundred,so i was in town after seeing the houseid been given i was praying to God saying how was i gunna afford to decorate this huge and lovely house of my dreams! i went to the cash machin n lo n behold they had given me everysingle penny of four years backdated money which added upto FOUR GRAND wooot.:bow: praise God! it was ligit,it was a blessing i should only got a couple of hundred.
well i walked the christian path so thankfull for all my blessings.but i fell.BIG time.i couldnt comprehend a God sending his children to hell i couldnt go round condeming ppl soi went to a rave,i was on magic mushrooms,i felt so condemned after all wat GOD had done for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was ata illegal party on drugs wen i should been in church,i cried n sat on the grass then God said to me "my child you can never be part from me and i can never be apart from you" i felt liberated and free,and i got into the free party scene heavily then i fell,got onto drugs thinking i was a free soul do do as i wish n i was still blesssed by God,but i wasnt,and i became a wiccan witch for five years heavily into tarot,they said i hada a gift "i did"
il have to finnish this story another time,but basicly im returned to the lord after a huge revelation basicly id died and i went to hell,i judged myself n sent my self there.i will come back to tell you this revelation.
trust in God not the idols!
be blessed in God and jesus always!
love from Sarah Joy( this surname is the only good thing i got from my adoptive family)
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