I have many health realted issues going on in my life. I won't go into all of them as I don't want to sound as though I am complaining or posting a my life sucks post.
A new one has arrisen over the past 3 months that has increased my lack of energy which I need to work. In a two week peroid I am to work 30 hours, and the past three months have only managed to get in 20-25 hours a pay cycle. I don't want to loose this job as I need it. I work at home in a medical billing job.
My breathing has been horrible, causing me to become more exhausted more easily. I'm in the process of testing to see what the problem is. Yesterday I went through breathing tests. Next week I am to have an echo cardiogram done.
Today I am more exhausted from the tests yesterday. And I think that this is all begining to become very depressing. I think for the most part I do manage to overcome/hide the depression as to not upset my family. I can live with the chronic pain, but not having energy to function and take care of just the basica daily things in life, and with christmas upcoming and the things i need to do to prepare for this, I need my energy levels to increase greatly.
I'm really sorry to hear you're going through all of this. It sounds incredibly difficult to balance the challenges with your health, work, and maintaining the strength to manage daily life, especially with the holidays approaching. You're being incredibly strong by pushing through, but it's completely understandable that the exhaustion is weighing on you, physically and emotionally.
The fact that you're in the process of getting tests done is a positive step toward figuring out what's going on, which hopefully will lead to some relief or answers soon. But until then, it sounds like the fatigue is making everything feel overwhelming.
If you're open to it, consider having a conversation with your supervisor at work. You don’t have to go into all the details, but explaining that you're experiencing health issues might allow for some flexibility or support in your work schedule. Many employers will be understanding when someone is going through something like this, especially if you have a good track record.
For the exhaustion and mental strain, I wonder if it might help to prioritize small, manageable tasks, both for work and home. Trying to do everything at once can feel crushing, especially when you're low on energy. Breaking things down might make the load feel a little lighter. Also, even though you're shouldering a lot, don't hesitate to lean on your family for help or emotional support — you don’t have to carry this all alone.
It’s also really important to acknowledge that it’s okay to not always be okay. Chronic health issues, fatigue, and pain can lead to depression, and trying to hide it from your family can be exhausting in itself. It's natural to feel low sometimes when your body isn’t cooperating. Maybe finding someone you can talk to — whether it’s a friend, a therapist, or a support group — could help lift some of that emotional weight.
I truly hope that the tests bring you answers soon and that you start feeling more energy returning. Don’t forget to take care of yourself mentally as well as physically, and it’s okay to reach out for help when you need it.